asphyxia

14/02/2012

2012-02-15T23:13:00.002Z

Sometimes you have to do something unforgivable... just to be able to go on living.

and you have done so more than once

so excuse me but, yesterday 14/02/2012, after 7,5 years since the first time I saw you and 7 years since the first time I kissed you, I had to become you..

and this time, this time I will do something unforgivable... I will remain silence and I do promise I won't break when I happen to meet you in person. I don't want to think of you anymore neither think about you anyless.

I have always considered oblivion as the curse of the human heart. So, here we are. This is me doing something unforgivable to you my love, my best friend my better half. This is me being you, being something unforgivable and unforgettable. This is me being never-existent.

Pi

2012-02-07T11:54:00.000Z

an me diabaseis suntoma, psakse me.
ehw na sou pw tosa polla. kai fobamai na sta grapsw.

proxtes su esteila ena sms, to diktuo mu to gurise pisw legontas mu 'text was not sent'
kai eniwsa analafra perierga pou den ta katafere na drapeteusei kai na se ftasei.

mou leipeis. afto einai to mystiko mu. kai an ta mustika prepei na ma8ainontai, oriste. as to ma8ei o kosmos olos. mou leipeis.

destroy everything you touch

2012-01-30T13:49:00.003Z

I thought this love would last forever

2012-01-30T12:39:00.002Z

He waits for her to understand
But she won't understand at all
She waits all night for him to call
But he won't call anymore
He waits to hear her say
Forgive
But she just drops her pearl-black eyes
And prays to hear him say
I love you
But he tells no more lies
He waits for her to sympathize
But she won't sympathize at all
She waits all night to feel his kiss
But always wakes alone
He waits to hear her say
Forget
But she just hangs her head in pain
And prays to hear him say
No more
I'll never leave again

How did we get this far apart?
We used to be so close together
How did we get this far apart?
I thought this love would last forever

He waits for her to understand
But she won't understand at all
She waits all night for him to call
But we won't call
He waits to hear her say
Forgive
But she just drops her pearl-black eyes
And prays to hear him say
I love you
But he tells no more lies

How did we get this far apart?
We used to be so close together
How did we get this far apart?
I thought this love would last forever

εντ ιτς στιλ τζέινουαρι

2012-01-23T16:33:00.000Z

τα έχω κάνει σκατά, μα εσένα, μανάρι μου, σε ερωτεύομαι

And a fall from you is a long way down

2012-01-23T12:20:00.001Z

έχω αρχίσει και συνειδητοποιώ πως όταν η ευτυχία μου τείνει να κρέμεται από ένα 'πράγμα', η πτώση στο πάτωμα γίνεται με τα μούτρα. μπαμ. άμεσα. μπαμ.

ε-Pi-κήδειο

2012-01-11T23:55:00.000Z

Κάθε που πέφτει στα χέρια μου η σελίδα με τις ευχαριστίες σε όσους στάθηκαν δίπλα μου τα τελευταία 3μιση χρόνια νιώθω ρε φίλε πως διαβάζω τον επικήδειό σου..

''σε σένα που δεν είσαι πια εδώ, στο πι μου...ευχαριστώ''

γαμώτο σου, γαμώτο μας

θέλω να μπει λίγη ζωή στις αφιερώσεις μου ρε

γιατί δεν μου κλείνεις το μάτι λίγο ρε; έτσι για αλλαγή;

I miss you Pi, I do

2012-01-11T23:36:00.002Z

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
I told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end
Always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Somebody
I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Somebody
I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
I used to know
That I used to know
I used to know
Somebody

new face

2011-12-01T22:27:00.001Z

Eimai 28 etwn. gia peripou 10 xronia eixa ena komplex. thn elia sto aristero mu magoulo. oso ki an thn ekryban ta mallia mu, panta thn eblepa. panta kapoios thn eblepe kai me rwtouse kati xazo gi afthn.

meta thn agaphsa epeidi thn agaphses ki esu. epeidi den thn eblepes pote.

abrio stis 11 to prwi 8a exei fygei apo panw mu gia panta. an kai dn me enoxlei pia. thn agaphsa. alla 8a allaksei to proswpo mu gia panta. kai ksereis ti? 8elw na kopsw toso ta mallia mu, na exw mallia oti nanai kai na anoiksei to proswpo mou, na fwtisoun ta matia mou kai na mh kruvomai pia.

thn epomenh fora pou 8a me deis loipon, den 8a exeis fygei mono esu apo th zwh mu. alla kai afto. kai 8a eimai enas allos an8rwpos. xwris komplex.

kane mas th xarh kai ...

2011-12-01T18:27:00.001Z

an fobasai na agaphseis, meine monos sou. i kane parea me an8rwpous pou se agapane xwris na 8eloune na exoun erwtikes sxeseis mazi sou.

an fobasai to mualo sou kai ta 8 xronia pou ezhses prin apo mena, tote kane mas th xarh kai pese se lh8argo.

giati agaph mu fobasai na zhseis to shmera kai mas prhzeis me to ti ezhses prin 7 xronia..

kai ksereis ti? to simera perase kai oute kan to eniwses re blaka.

zhse.

oloi xwrisame. oloi ponesame. zhse. kane mas th xarh su lew, kai zhse. agapa ksana kai as sakatefteis. den peirazei. mia zwh exoume kai einai polu mikrh gia na zhsoume th mish se la8os sxeseis kai thn allh mish mesa stous fovous mas.

kane mu th xarh

kai zhse. geusou. tsalakwsou. ksana kai ksana gamwto.

love or lust

2011-11-27T11:45:00.001Z

I have always been in a relationship or, insisting on making love with my steady partner who dearly loved and cared for...
I always thought that enjoying sex was the result of loving your partner, like touching him and feeling the crack in your heart that gives so much pleasure. when two people love each other, everything would be amazing wouldn't be?
But for me it was not like this. Yes feeling safe in your hands was one thing, not being judged by how I look like on that day was another...but the crack in my heart was not a pleasure. It was a pain.

For the last four months I have been discovering the other side of love, the dark side. I am sleeping with someone I don't love as much as I had loved you, but you know what? I think I am falling for him cause sleeping next to him is much more easy. It feels comfortable, funny, sometimes tender sometimes not, it feels proper.. and I wonder if love can be born from the dark side and not the other way around.. I wonder if all this passion pumping my heart out is love or lust.. and if from lust, love can be born and not vice versa

tis nuxtes

2011-11-24T19:21:00.001Z

tha me deis na perpataw th martiou kapou stis 3misi me 4 ta xaramata. me ena koulouri gemato elies kai isws ena gala.

tha me deis na xamogelaw me ikanopoihsh oxi gia tipota allo pera apo to oti krataw to pio nostimo koulouri sto xeri mou..

allote pali tha me deis sti staseis tou 78N sthn egnatia na perimenw monh mou to lewforeio ki allote pali na eimai tyligmenh sthn agkalia tou kai na perimenoume to lewforeio... tha me breis stin aristotelous na perpataw me skufto to kefali kai kana tsigaro sto xeri, etsi gia na mi fanw adunamh an pesei kaneis panw mou..ki allote 8a me breis na ton krataw xeri xeri kai na niw8w super hrwas.

8a me deis sto lewforeio na ton koitazw mesa sto matia, na tou pianw to mesaio daxtylo kai meta ton deikth tou, na tou lew poso poly xaroumenh eimai, kai na niw8w pws aftos den einai toso..na tou lew pws i eftyxia einai afto. se afto to defterolepto. na 8elw na tou pw pws i eftyxia eimaste emeis. kai pws prepei na mas dei me tin kardia tou..ma den mporw na pw tipota giati fovamai pws 8a ton xasw gia panta. opote skubw to kefali mou, barianasainw, akoumpaw to kefali mou sto palto tou kai koutroubalaw mazi tou th kathfora tis martiou.

ekei meta to fourno me apoxaireta.. kalhnyxta dimitrini mou. kai me fila sta xeili dipla. gurnaw ti plath mu afu lew ena petaxto oneiro gluka kai katrakulaw th martiou mexri thn an8ewn, brizontas to dimitrini pou einai toso periploko..

mh me rwthsete pote pernaw kalutera. monh h mazi tou mesa se afto to xaos. den exei simasia. simasia exei pos prospa8w na peisw ton eafto mou 2 mhnes twra pws mporw na mhn ton xreiazomai toso sth zwh mou. pws ton agapaw etsi eukola epeidi itan kai einai enas polu kalos mu filos apo to 2004. apla 7 xronia egw hmun me kapoion allon kai pote den perasame tous dromous parea.

8elw. 8elw na akouw smiths. kai na se skeftomai sto lewforeio dipla mou. kai na fadazomai pws me grapwneis na mou dwseis ena apo afta ta ekatomuria apistefta, terastia laxtarista filia pou mou edwses prin apo 24 meres...

I really hate these adverts

2011-11-22T23:54:00.001Z

Ονειρεμένη τριήμερη απόδραση 2-4 ατόμων στα μαγευτικά Ζαγοροχώρια με -55%

ονειρεμένο τριήμερο στο μαγευτικό Πήλιο για 2 άτομα....

και πάει λέγοντας...

όχι για κάποιο άλλο λόγο... αλλά ρε φίλε, μου θυμίζουν εσένα και το σκατοσκαταμένο πούντο σου, και εμένα στο τιμόνι να μη μπορώ να πληρώσω τα διόδια γιατί έχω σταθεί 23 βήματα πιο μακρυά τους, και αχ...μου θυμίζουν τη μοναξιά μου ρε

και νιώθω δον κιχώτης για λίγο. να παλεύω με τους ανεμόμυλούς σου.

Η τύχη οδηγεί τα βήματά μας. Βλέπεις εκεί φίλε μου Σάντσο Πάνσα, τριάντα, ίσως και λιγότερους, τεράστιους γίγαντες που ενάντια τους θα πολεμήσω και θα τους πάρω τη ζωή;

- Μα ποιους γίγαντες; είπε ο Σάντσο.
- Εκείνους εκεί κάτω, δεν βλέπεις; απάντησε ο αφέντης του, , μερικοί μάλιστα έχουν χέρια μακριά ίσαμε δυο λεύγες.
- Κοιτάξτε αφέντη μου, - παρατήρησε ο Σάντσο – εκείνα εκεί κάτω που φαίνονται έτσι δεν είναι γίγαντες, αλλά ανεμόμυλοι, και αυτά που μοιάζουν με χέρια είναι τα φτερά του που, καθώς ο άνεμος τα γυρίζει, κάνουν τη μυλόπετρα να αλέθει.
- Πώς φαίνεται ότι δεν έχεις ιδέα από περιπέτειες! Αυτοί εκεί είναι γίγαντες και, αν φοβάσαι, πήγαινε στην άκρη να προσευχηθείς, όσο θα δίνω την άνιση μάχη ενάντια τους.

λοιπόν τι λες; να πολεμήσω τους ανεμόμυλούς σου;

We need to talk about Pi

2011-11-22T11:54:00.001Z

I was waiting last night for my sister to join me and go to the theatre, and decided to light a cigarette to waste some time. I approached the bench and took a seat while observing the current changes of the Aristotelous Square. I remembered one of the most beautiful gifts you have given me; it was 2005 I think and you called me and arranged a meeting at the Aristotelous square on a specific time. I was pretty sure you wanted us to go to the movies. But instead, you, always so quirky, wanted me to see the Christmas tree standing in the middle of the square, with all these lights set up to light at 6:30p.m.

I love you for this day Pi.. I do..and for some others like this one. But we are getting closer to Xmas again, now it is 2011, and I dearly wished you did this once again. Actually that would be pretty awesome; calling me after 5months and saying: hey beautiful let's meet there at 6:30p.m. I would have been there. even earlier. to watch you walk towards me one more time...

το είπαν στις ειδήσεις

2011-11-20T13:59:00.001Z

κοίτα που καταλήξαμε... αγάπη μου.

να μαθαίνω από τις εφημερίδες πως μετακομίζετε...

~~μου λείπει τόσο η μυρωδιά σου~~

Post it

2011-11-18T12:53:00.001Z

"Έχε υπόψη σου ότι είσαι από τη φύση σου πολεμιστής. Ακόμη κι όταν πέφτεις ψυχολογικά και δεν έχεις όρεξη για προσπάθεια, λίγο να σηκωθείς, δεν σε πιάνει κανείς"

ghost hardware

2011-11-16T17:46:00.001Z

you are everywhere.

In my espresso, in my thesis, in my music, in my moves, in my heart, head and toes.

How am I supposed to get over you? How on earth will I pull myself out of this freaking dead end ha?

How many times am I about to forgive and forget? ~~it has always been you, you you you you...~~

Someone I used to know

2011-11-16T13:24:00.001Z

My heart says yes; I can do this all over, again and again. loving you. holding and kissing you.

My mind says no, especially when I remember how you stood in front of me, looking at me crying my eyes out, and just walked away, leaving back the supposed love of your life, to go on vacations with a stranger you had just confessed that meant nothing to you.

You see, it has been four months, I am the stranger now. She is all over you. I am not jealous of her. I am just saying what has happened. I did not cheat on you, I was the last to leave our relationship. I still am. I am still struggling with your choices. These choices that made me feel you are just someone I used to know and not someone I want to know.
So please stop saying that I let you down. And how sad is my attitude towards you. I have been living my life, a life I chose to live after you announcing your choices, a life without you. A life, merely initially mine. So please give me some credit here. I just did my best to serve your interests once more. I just disappeared for not letting you down ever again. You see how freaking amazing I am?

double decker bus

2011-11-15T14:08:00.001Z

sagapw alla afise me na zisw. afise me. meine me ti mania sou kai ti ka8e Mania sou, kai ase me na zisw. me aksioprepeia. afise me afou dn tolmas na paradex8eis pos ta exoume kai exeis kanei ola skata. kai eimai tetoios an8rwpos gamwto mou pou 8a mporousa na sou sugxwresw ton pono pou exw niwsei toso polu toso terastia polu tosa xronia mono me mia kinisi agapis. mia kinisi xazi, ena sagapw ena mou leipeis 8elw na se murisw, 8elw na blepw ta isia dontia sou na xamogelane.. alla afta ta mikra pragmata den einai efkola gia sena. pote den itane.

loipon den kserw giati se exw apogohtefsei. mallon epeidi se afisa na prospa8iseis 2i fora mazi mou. mallon epeidi dn se afisa na me xwriseis ena xrono prin, les kai 8a allaze tpt... mallon epeidi sagapousa toso polu pou i8ela gia 1i fora sti zwi mou na dwsw to 100% tou eaftou mu se kati. se emas. loipon an ftaiw gi afta, den me endiaferei. opws den endiaferei esena kai th logiki sou to o,ti den 8elw na exoume sxeseis pia. den 8elw oxi epeidi dn sagapw i noiazomai alla gia prwti fora sti zwi mou se akousa. akousa na mou fwnazeis na me prosexw, na dwsw sto dimitrini tin zwh pou oneireftike. loipon afto kanw. se akousa, kai twra me malwneis epeidi to ekana.

den se timwrw. apla zw. kai malista zw uperoxa. 2 misi mines twra xamogelaw se olo ton kosmo. den me noiazei sxedon tpt pera apo to na exw meiwmena eksoda. tpt allo. eimai eleu8eri. oneirevomai tin islandia kai ola afta pou den exw kanei tosa xronia. oneirevomai agaph. oneirevomai esena na mporouses na mu dwseis agaph. na mporousame na xamogelousame twra kai na su elega na pame na mou pareis mpotes gia to snowboard pou 8a kanw se ena misi mina kai den 8a eisai pou8ena na me kamarwseis. oxi den ftaiw pou den eisai edw mazi mou. esi ftais. esu to epelekses. kai kata ta legomena sou 8a eprepe na to exeis kanei kairo prin. zise loipon opws epelexes. egw eipa xiliades lexeis, eriksa xiliades dakrua gia na se kratisw, fwnaksa, xtypisa, kai den efaga gia mines. esu piges diakopes me ti Mania sou kai egw egrafa kefalaia didaktorikou. ase me loipon na zisw opws epeleksa na zisw apo ti stigmi pou me afises moni mou.

afise me i ela apla na me pareis na fugoume parea re. apla kane kati. mia fora. kane kati. apelpizomai.

since you have been gone

2011-11-11T12:02:00.001Z

After 7 years of a too-hard-to-sustain relationship, I am single again.

And not only single, but being back and living in the city I was born after 10 years of being all around Europe.

And not only that. But also having my amazing friends around me after so much of wasted time on trying to fix us.

Since you've been gone, yes, I know what bliss feels like. I am happy. I am me. more than ever. and you know what? I am also finishing my PhD! Damn!

post secret

2011-11-07T00:30:00.000Z

I had been so scared for such a long time that I can't remember exactly when it started.
I had been so scared of not being able to be touched as I dreamed, kissed for hours and having someone holding my hand in public.

Now I am too scared of the happiness I live in [even if it feels pure happiness only to me]

I really want to post a picture of us together but I know reality is better than my blog. So I am getting on the plane darling, I am coming there.

I can't wait to come home and have your hands on me again ...

xx

A case of you

2011-11-02T13:47:00.000Z

I met a woman
She had a mouth like yours
She knew your life
She knew your devils and your deeds
And she said
Go to him, stay with him if you can
But be prepared to bleed

You will never know

2011-10-29T18:22:00.000+01:00

you will never see me again crying. I promise.You will never get to know something more than the basic 'I am very well, thank you' and 'good to see ya out alive again'. I promise.

I wish I had taken better care of my heart

2011-10-21T16:17:00.000+01:00

It doesn't feel weird to wake up without you anymore. Sometimes I feel terrible, sometimes fantastic, but it doesn't depend on you anymore. I can take as much time as I want in the morning - I can choose to get dressed as fast or slow as I want to and I can run out the door without having to pull you with me. My glass of water is mine only and is not emptied by somebody else.

But as you can see, I think about you.
But still… not.

I think about the person you were when I still had the energy to love you and you still hadn't crushed us. You were so damn egoistic when you treated yourself like shit. You never understood that we were bound together in the heart and that I was just as hurt as you when you threw yourself around like garbage. The concrete tore up both our bodies. Not just yours.

I don't think about who you are today. I don't miss the one you probably are now. I don't miss who you wanted to be or become.

Sweet you is missing. Gorgeous you. Handsome you. Annoying you. Restless you. Easily embarrassed you. Cuddly you. Morning moody you. Giggling you. Loving you. Real you! Everything you were, with all the negative and annoying behavior you brought with you.
On the inside, you never were something negative. I don't know whom you gave the right to change your personality, but it never really fit with the person I loved so sincerely. You changed shape, in some way. Became somebody else from time to time. Someone I didn't love at all.

Hell, I was so sick of you. And of me.

Maybe mostly of me. I disliked us so much in the end. Everything was so hard.
Only a few things were beautiful. Most things were just so damn ugly. And me! Angry, mad, cranky, sad, hurt, sarcastic, mean. I was everything that I'm not. And full of despair. So terribly full of despair, like I'd never been before.
For five years, my home was in your arms.

I love my life. Yes, I actually do. Despite everything. And can you believe it - I love my life even though you're not here with me!

I confess that I occasionally still feel like I'm dying when I realize that we're no longer… you know… Us. I can never deny that you were my other half. Neither can I deny that you're missing.

But damn.

Damn, I loved you so much.
Damn, I always will.

And damn…
The pain is never going to go away.
Thank God we only live once

mikres xares

2011-09-26T00:58:00.000+01:00

'' re xerome pou stin alli akri tou pliktrologiou ise esi online ...''

Pagan Poetry

2011-09-06T15:15:00.002+01:00

this is the only thing that makes sense in me

I never learned to be on my own

2011-08-23T17:26:00.000+01:00

it has been 4 days since I last talked to you. It has been more than 4 days since I last kissed you and you kissed me back like u wanted it. It feels so strange to wake up and push myself not to think of you. because thinking of you hurts me. wanting you destroys me. expecting you once more to come back drains me.

but the only thing I deeply desire is to come and live with me.
I will keep a corner clean for you in my new house.
-I think about u babe, I want you to live with me-

2011-06-29T11:21:00.000+01:00

The first time I met Bjork was in 2007, in Werchter Festival. It was raining and I had a broken heart.
I remember I cried when I saw this little creature jumping up and down on stage. She has been among the most beautiful things I have ever seen.

And now I am going again to see her, one day after my bday. I will be 28, with two new friends, in Manchester and with a heart that needs mending.

This is her new track - she is using ipad for Biophilia

It stroke me; it pulled me initially into my comfort zone with her cute vocals and then bam bam bam, I got 'shot' and rejuvenated again with the quirky drum n bass

Just for you love

2011-06-29T11:14:00.000+01:00

And the gracefullest Fireworks are burning
In the sky (Oooow) just for you I can feel it, I can feel it, ohh!!

You deserve it child. You deserve it.

Skinny love

2011-06-19T11:32:00.000+01:00

Cm'on, skinny love I like you but won't pay £30 to see you! Don't you know we live in hard times Bon Iver?

Love out of lust

2011-06-07T17:15:00.000+01:00

It has been a while, I know. sigh. PhD seems to drain me. Also wrecked knee pushed me to start exercising every day.

I have been blessed with a new friend. You know what? I met her in the super market; I asked her in Greek if I can quickly go and fetch a celery. She smiled and said yes and for three months it feels like having another sister. She studies drama and therapy and sometimes she talks about really strange experiences she has in her classes. I love listening to her stories; they make sense to me. In all her stories I discover more about myself.

This morning she visited me at 10am to say hi and grab her gym card. She stayed for a while and talked to me about the session she had the previous night. It was quite intense for her and made me feel so unable to take some of her own frustrations away.
Almost 7 hours later I am listening to Lykke Li and I read her lyrics and all I want to say is that I value we instead of I

We will live longer than I will, We will be better than I will, We can cross rivers with our will, We can do better than I can

so, I will keep my promise and I will dance while I can

So dance while you can, Dance cause you must, Love out of lust..Dance while you can

are you listening to me? NO

2011-05-14T10:49:00.000+01:00

- are you listening to me?
- NO

everything with you ...

2011-04-12T19:21:00.002+01:00

even if I had to crawl and walk the distance between our hearts...
2134.01 miles

and you always do

2011-04-12T19:15:00.000+01:00

finishing (?) my PhD next to you at our sea house

2011-03-01T09:49:00.001Z

dreaming of early May 2011

You and Me

2011-01-31T19:13:00.002Z

Blue Valentine

2011-01-24T01:03:00.000Z

is a great movie about all those persons you have tried to be in order to pleasure someone you dearly love and in the end, you are that person you never wanted to be and ditched by this particular one you dearly love.

Blue Valentine is about me you and us.

Is about that knife that breaks your heart into pieces

I love you. I do

2011-01-17T00:50:00.002Z

Love is

2011-01-14T21:13:00.000Z

when you announce to him that your abstract was accepted by the conference committee and the next thing you hear is ''do you want me to fly over there?''

merry Christmas lover

2010-12-14T20:02:00.002Z

I love the happiness your presence gives me

2010-11-30T21:19:00.000Z

You, always...

2010-11-30T21:04:00.000Z

I look into your eyes
Diving into the ocean
I look into your eyes
Falling

Like a wall of stars
We are ripe to fall

And if you are a ghost
I'll call your name again
And if you are a ghost
I'll call your name...

You, always

Rule 28

2010-11-27T10:15:00.002Z

U know you have found the love of your life, when you text quantum mechanics' theories for describing the unique effect that both of you create when together.

ax

2010-11-18T17:03:00.000Z

My heart moans for you baby

2010-11-15T21:04:00.002Z

γιατί μου το χαλάς;

Thessaloniki_Greece

2010-11-02T12:51:00.000Z

Now.. after so long. I can confess.. You are beautiful

Flatland

2010-10-31T22:31:00.001Z

till today I had always thought dearly of circles. But today I changed my mind; A Line Allows Progress, A Circle Does Not..

I want to be a line. That's it. as simple as that. a lone line

weekends

2010-10-30T21:21:00.002+01:00

weekends from Ryan Jay on Vimeo.

I am sorry_

2010-10-25T00:50:00.000+01:00

but I wish I did.

Follow Me Down

2010-10-24T00:34:00.000+01:00

______ Follow Me Down____

You're wondering if it's worth it
You're wondering what to do
You're asking me to see the future
And you want me to tell it to you

See I can't believe it myself
So how can I prove it to you
That this is all a dream

Okay follow me down
Come on you can trust me now
Okay follow me down
You can trust me now .....

UNKLE - Follow Me Down (feat. Sleepy Sun) from UNKLE on Vimeo.

2010-10-19T10:57:00.001+01:00

Es bueno que las vidas tengan varios circulos, pero la mia, mi vida, solo ha dado la vuelta una vez, y no del todo, falta lo más importante. He escrito tantas veces su nombre dentro.

Y aquí, ahora mismo, no puedo cerrar nada.
Estoy sola

I am exhausted- do you hear me?

2010-10-17T23:50:00.000+01:00

and I want to give up and sleep as much as I can.. and when I wake up I would be a different person, or a fish, a goldfish maybe with such a short memory to fear

if wants and needs divide me then I might as well be gone

2010-09-26T18:41:00.000+01:00

So if I could I'd wish it all away, if I thought tomorrow would take you away
You're my peace of mind, my home, my center

all of the ways.. I will make it up for you

2010-09-25T12:26:00.000+01:00

σταγονόμετρο

2010-09-17T00:15:00.001+01:00

Don't look into your eyes cause I'm desperately in love
In love
When you walk in the room everything disappears
When you walk in the room it's a terrible mess
When you walk in the room I start to melt
When you walk in the room I follow you round
Like a dog, I'm a dog, I'm a dog, I'm a lapdog
I'm your lapdog, yeah
I just got a number and location
I just need my number and location

με το σταγονόμετρο.. ~~3.14159265~~

Alright stupid jerk, that's all

2010-08-01T15:48:00.000+01:00

Are you still in there?

2010-07-25T00:43:00.000+01:00

this is my only question. Are you still in there? And I mean your body; your muscles. are you still in there?

I Surrender - Wouldn't you?

2010-07-20T20:56:00.000+01:00

I am scared Nannou

2010-07-16T00:45:00.001+01:00

Γιατί είναι τόσο δύσκολο να αποφασίσω πως αγαπώ εμένα περισσότερο από εσένα;

2010-07-15T20:02:00.000+01:00

Γιατί αγαπώ περισσότερο εμάς

Χρόνια μου πολλά λοιπόν

2010-07-12T21:15:00.000+01:00

και ας μη γιορτάζει τίποτα μέσα μου

έλα να ζήσουμε μαζί, έλα

When you have to fight over your heart every day

2010-07-09T08:35:00.001+01:00

via
lelove

Drowning

2010-07-01T20:18:00.000+01:00

Asphyxia (from Greek a-, "without" and σφυγμός (sphygmos), "heartbeat") is a condition of severely deficient supply of oxygen to the body that arises from being unable to breathe normally.
Drowning is death from suffocation (asphyxia) caused by a liquid entering the lungs and preventing the absorption of oxygen leading to cerebral hypoxia and myocardial infarction.

Asphyxia is one of the two most salient responses to your attempts to push me away.
Asphyxia is one of the most salient Embodied responses to your attempts to leave me.
Asphyxia is one of the most intense ways to tell you as loud as I can that I love you to bits.
Asphyxia is one of my ways to show you that you are important; my best friend, my man, my oxygen.

Lights

2010-06-24T11:27:00.000+01:00

Live with me

2010-06-22T01:07:00.000+01:00

Times, Nothing's right, if you ain't here
I'll give all that I have, just to keep you near
I wrote you a letter, darling, tried to make it clear,
But you just don't believe that I'm sincere

I've been thinking about you, baby
I want you to live with me, wow
I've been thinking about you, baby
I want you to live with me

unmade beds

2010-06-13T15:00:00.001+01:00

A black television screen
Snow white and black
Deep and open
Splashing against the windows
Looking out onto a three-terrace town
There’s a garden, grey-green
And cherry blossoms

Get in in the morning (all seasons here, saved for a rainy day)
Climb in beside you (a part of a hole)
Watch the clock for half an hour (an orange and it’s peel)
It’s cold on the outside
There’s steam on the windows (a star in a night sky)
And I put myself there all the time (a gentle beauty)
You let me forget again

And I snore on and on
You let me forget again
Forget how it feels to be wrong

If I could show her completely (funny how everything makes you feel low when you’re already low)
But it comes so drunkardly now (lying on the bed, the light bulb banging down)
Fall over on my words (get up, pull the sheet from the window, to see the rain still coming down)
That peace when the door slams (downstairs there’s hot coffee, sit down to a cigarette)
Soon shattered [ ? ] (down to the filter, another and down to my last)
I came so well-oiled (another and my last penny)
You let me forget again (4 a.m. 6 feet down. already up with the larks)
And I came stumbling through
You let me forget again (4 a.m. 6 feet down. already up with the larks)
Forget what I always knew

I love you

2010-05-29T18:15:00.002+01:00

I ~~love you~~ not

2010-05-25T20:18:00.000+01:00

θυμάσαι ρε;
με έβαζες στο αυτοκίνητό σου και μου χαμογελούσες και ας ήταν 4 α.μ.
μου χαμογελούσες. και μου άνοιγες το παράθυρο και μύριζε θάλασσα.
και πατούσες το γκάζι και ακουγότανε το Κύμα. θυμάσαι;
ήταν τα δευτερόλεπτα που ένιωθα άνθρωπος, ρε με ακούς;
άνθρωπος. μπανανόψαρό μου.

Need someone, even a stranger, to hug me

2010-05-13T21:57:00.000+01:00

and let me sleep.. peacefully for once.
I am suffering from nightmares and daymares

2010-05-08T12:38:00.000+01:00

I have been growing my hair long for 6 months now.
For those that know me for a while, this sounds strange. really strange.
Yes, I hate long hair. Especially on me.

For 6 months now, I have been growing my hair long. Not for me, but for you. Because you had been suggesting this every once a while.
This morning I woke up and had a look in the mirror.
All that time I had been growing my hair for you.
And now that my hair are long, where the fuck are you?

I remember

2010-05-08T09:15:00.002+01:00

Drowning

2010-05-07T10:59:00.004+01:00

staying for what you believe as our future together

staying for fearing that going away is a mistake

either ways

not healthy reasons for staying in a relationship

Tate Modern is 10!!!!!

2010-05-05T21:31:00.006+01:00

TATE MODERN IS 10! To celebrate its first decade, they are taking over the Turbine Hall for a weekend of live art, music and performances. A birthday procession, No Soul for Sale Exhibition and much more. 14 - 16 May.

More about their birthday celebrations

All The World (I Tell Myself)

2010-04-30T23:26:00.000+01:00

Say that I'm changed
Say I'm different
Maybe I finally understand
Say I've let go
Say that it's obvious
I tell myself over and over
And over and over again

I'm ready I'm ready
I'm ready to believe

Tell me I'm strong
Tell me I'm weak
Tell me I'll never, never bend
Tell me I'm fire
Tell me I'm cold
Cold I tell myself over and
Over and over again

I'm ready I'm ready
I'm ready to believe

'Cuz I want to feel my heart
Yes I want to feel my heart
Yeah I want to feel feel feel my heart

So tell me I'm strong
Tell me I'm weak
Tell me I'll never understand
Oh, but I'm ready
I'm ready I'm ready to believe

me and you

2010-04-28T00:15:00.001+01:00

when you look at me while sleeping, do you really see what I am dreaming of?

It's me and you, you stupid! Till all my teeth fall out

xx

The nights when I go to sleep

2010-04-19T21:43:00.001+01:00

The nights when I go to sleep
I am trying hard to make myself relax; to let the day go..
The nights when I go to sleep, I push myself to believe that everything will be ok.
The nights when I go to sleep, I am trying hard to forget that when I wake up there will be none to say good morning to.
That's the reason why I never seem to get enough rest
My dreams are a constant struggle to vanish reality

Change is hard

2010-03-29T20:27:00.002+01:00

2010-03-26T21:06:00.002Z

mou leipei na se blepw prasino sto gtalk...

I am no good for you

2010-03-25T12:48:00.001Z

yes, I see open wounds in everyone I dated..

I am no good for you
I'm seeing ghosts in everything I do

Oh will you ever know
That the bitterness and anger left me long ago
Only sadness remains
And it will pass
Yeah you you will be loved by somebody good
By somebody good

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uUkje1lw4cA

2010-03-19T09:39:00.003Z

true love

My first love

burns the brightest,

But the brightest flames leave the deepest scars

to paketo kai egw

2010-03-19T07:10:00.000Z

exei sxedon kshmerwsei. einai 19 marth 2010. edw kai 6 xronia aftos o mhnas me kanei na niw8w perierga. paliotera htan apla ta gene8lia olwn oswn agapw, meta eginan mono ta dika sou. Ena xrono argotera eginan ta dika sou gene8lia kai ta gene8lia ths sxeshs mas pou megalwne kai dn me tromaze diolou. meta apo ligo eginan ta gene8lia pou h8ela na apofygw. htan h mera pou 8rhnousa goera ola afta pou dn 8a ksanazousa.
2010. 19 marth. 3 meres prin. exei kshmerwsei. zhthma na koimh8hka 12 lepta. zhthma na xamogelasa eksaitias sou ton teleftaio mhna.
2010. 17 genarh, eimai se ena polukatasthma, mprosta apo ena panemorfo forema. katakokkino panemorfo forema. to grapwnw. kserw akrivws pote tha to foresw. ton aprilio. giortazontas th dunamh ths agaphs pou mas efere ksana konta se ena sta8mo trenwn, se mia krua eurwpaikh prwteuousa.
2010.19 marth. to forema einai akoma sth ntoulapa. den sto edeiksa pote. kai giati allwste? einai marths akoma akous? einai me to kartelaki ths timhs akoma, akous? to agorasa apo eftyxia.. 3 mhnes mprosta. hmoun sigourh pws 8a to foresw. me eftyxua. 8a to foresw..
to forema einai sth ntoulapa. kai to kala tyligmeno paketo pou exei mesa to dwro sou.
exeu kshmerwsei edw kai 2wres..
panta agapousa tis uposxeseis. niw8w pws einai to mono pragma pou me kanei na exw sta8eres. oi uposxeseis.
8a se ksanadw suntoma. se agapw. 8a s agapw gia panta, 8a se prosexw, 8a se koitaw otan koimasai..
8a valw to forema akoma kai an esi dn er8eis pote, kai 8a parw to paketo mazi mou mexri th liverpool street stis 10 aprilh.
kai an den er8eis, 8a parw mia va8eia anasa kai 8a vouthksw. sto keno pou toso me tromazei giati me gohtevei. 8a bouthksw. kai 8a einai uper8eama. kokkino xrwma, kordeles dwrou, murwdies ston aera pou einai mh ananewsimos se afth th trypa.. uper8eama.

kai prepei na kratame tis uposxeseis mas.

I want a poem written for me..

2010-03-18T13:06:00.000Z

αναρωτιέμαι

2010-03-05T20:00:00.000Z

όταν λέμε "κάτι πάει λάθος" πώς στην ευχή βρίσκεις αυτό το κάτι;

audacity

2010-03-04T00:27:00.000Z

Audacity® is free, open source software for recording and editing sounds. It is available for Mac OS X, Microsoft Windows, GNU/Linux, and other operating systems. (personal insight: and actually is the most helpful software ever!:))

With audacity user can easily do the following:

Record live audio.
Convert tapes and records into digital recordings or CDs.
Edit Ogg Vorbis, MP3, WAV or AIFF sound files.
Cut, copy, splice or mix sounds together.
Change the speed or pitch of a recording.

AND minimize the ambient sound!!! amazing!!!? want more?

Record from microphone, line input, or other sources.
Dub over existing tracks to create multi-track recordings.
Record up to 16 channels at once (requires multi-channel hardware).
Level meters can monitor volume levels before, during, and after recording
Import and export WAV, AIFF, AU, and Ogg Vorbis files.
Import MPEG audio (including MP2 and MP3 files) with libmad.
Export MP3s with the optional LAME encoder library.
Create WAV or AIFF files suitable for burning to CD.
Import and export all file formats supported by libsndfile.
Open raw (headerless) audio files using the “Import Raw” command.
hange the pitch without altering the tempo, or vice-versa.
Remove static, hiss, hum, or other constant background noises.
Alter frequencies with Equalization, FFT Filter, and Bass Boost effects.
Adjust volumes with Compressor, Amplify, and Normalize effects.
Other built-in effects include:
Echo
Phaser
Wahwah
Reverse

What? You are not yet sure?
go and download.. it's FREE!!

social objects and museums

2010-03-01T16:25:00.001Z

I was not lucky enough to be born in this city. Moreover, I was not lucky enough to live in this city when the Weather Project took place at Tate Modern.. I am lucky enough to see now how a museum- that white cube- can be transformed into a 'talking' cube, an alive cube, an embodied cube..

enjoy

the project:

people:

It is officially March !!

2010-02-28T23:53:00.002Z

and I want to close my eyes and be 10 years old again

2010-02-17T22:14:00.000Z

I don't know why

2010-02-17T20:38:00.000Z

but I like this tune

2010-02-13T11:17:00.003Z

Again. AND again.. and again...

-Cure- The Forest

That is strange. For a year now I have been gathering articles, editing bibliography and then spending time to read and write notes, memos, and finally papers that no one reads. Then for another 6 months I have spent time reading again these articles and books because my perspective is much wider and at the same time more focused. I see these articles with different eyes. Still though that pile of paper is still lying on my floor..

And then again I google keywords and find new articles from 2009 and 2010 that I have missed because I was reading all the prior ones all that time! And again, new knowledge, new pile of paper, new eyes, new bibliography, new perspectives...

that what a PhD is..

over-whelming, undying, overpowering, unconditional, all-encompassing, heart-enriching, mind-expanding, ongoing,

never-ending...

the art of being two

2010-02-12T19:23:00.000Z

Excuse me?

2010-02-07T18:06:00.001Z

we love museums

2010-02-06T16:55:00.000Z

because It has been for so long

2010-02-03T19:36:00.002Z

calm down

2010-02-01T22:32:00.000Z

I hear your breathing

teach me how to laugh

2010-01-31T16:01:00.000Z

p just wrote:

accesouar..einai ellhnikoaglikogalika..san to sesouar :P

Let us slide

2010-01-30T16:07:00.000Z

I love you

2010-01-30T16:06:00.000Z

warning Filming signs for qualitative research in museums

2010-01-27T12:53:00.000Z

while I have been smashing my brains in order to come up with the best sign ever for informing people that research is going on in the museum, I came across this..and I gave up any further attempt..

a simple advice :)

2010-01-25T17:34:00.000Z

no words

2010-01-25T00:56:00.000Z